Colin Hay: Waiting For My Real Life to Begin
Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll stand on the bow
And feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down on me
And you said,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin
When I awoke today suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path
And up this cobbled lane
I’m walking in my own footsteps once again
And you say,”Just be here now
Forget about the past
Your mask is wearing thin”
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I’m waiting for my real life to begin
Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll check my machine
There’s sure to be that call
It’s gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon
It’s just that times are lean
And you say,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin
Hey heyeyeyeyey
Hey yeeeeeee
Hey heyeyeyeyey
Eeh eeh eeh eeh eh x5
On a clear day
I can see, see for a long way
On a clear day
I can see, see a very long way
This song is just connecting with my right now. I don’t know how many times I said well in my “real” life this is what I want. Or when I get a “real” job. Just earlier I was talking to Kristina about feeling like I am waiting for my life to begin and time is just passing me by… I don’t really know what direction I am headed in. Maybe I need to go back to school. Maybe I should learn how to box. Maybe I should start running. Maybe I should learn how to decorate cakes. Maybe I should learn how to crochet. Maybe I should hang my clothes up. Maybe I should buy a superman robe. Yes that is right a super man robe. It is freaking awesome. Maybe I should spend hours online googling one thing after another. As you can tell by the wealth of useless knowledge I keep telling you I have chosen the last one to learn about all the things I maybe should be doing. Like did you know you can buy a boxing ring online? Just add it to your cart. That seems a little too easy. Like does it come in a kit? Do you have to put it together yourself? Do they come and assemble it? How much is shipping on something that size? Where would you put a boxing ring? REALLY!!! When would I need one? I haven’t even learned how to tape my hands yet… that is getting a little ahead of myself. But then I go well in my real life I will need a boxing ring in my gym… Reminds me of this house I created in my mind in high school. It was huge. Every bedroom had their own bathroom. And I put an apartment complex on the far end of the property for my family to live in. Don’t want them too close. Oh and I had so much stuff…. Which brings me to my stuff? I think I might sell my stuff off… Since it seems unlikely that I am going to find a new job anytime soon. And I may as well get rid of it all and lighten my load. One less bill a month… Plus the less I have the less I have tying me down keeping me in one place. It is very strange that I crave stability yet it scares the crap out of me. Having a house sounds wonderful but living in one city for an extended period of time is not ideal. A job with regular hours sounds wonderful. But can I really be happy doing a job like that… Where would I be happy? What will make me happy? Cant my “real” life just get started???????
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I hope you have enjoyed a few minutes inside my head…..
Stella, this is a really hard time in your life. I went through a couple years of restlessness in college. I think for me I was coming out of what I thought was a really awesome time in my life and the next stage was not living up to my expectations. Does it help to know that most people go through it in their lives? At least once?
For me it helped to really reflect on what was most important in my life and focus on those things-studying them, learning from them, enjoying them. For me that was my faith, Andy and my studies. I guess that made my world a little smaller and more manageable. Then I started to be able to see the other possibilities more clearly-did I want to be a truck driver or a teacher? Pray, learn, make a decision. Did I want to move to another state or stay in Ohio? Pray, research, make a decision. I will be praying for you during this time!
PS- I love the robe!!
Thanks Janis! The robe is awesome… It is on my list of things to buy.