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Colin Hay: Waiting For My Real Life to Begin

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll stand on the bow
And feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down on me

And you said,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path
And up this cobbled lane
I’m walking in my own footsteps once again

And you say,”Just be here now
Forget about the past
Your mask is wearing thin”
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll check my machine
There’s sure to be that call
It’s gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon
It’s just that times are lean

And you say,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

Hey heyeyeyeyey
Hey yeeeeeee
Hey heyeyeyeyey
Eeh eeh eeh eeh eh x5

On a clear day
I can see, see for a long way

On a clear day
I can see, see a very long way

This song is just connecting with my right now. I don’t know how many times I said well in my “real” life this is what I want. Or when I get a “real” job. Just earlier I was talking to Kristina about feeling like I am waiting for my life to begin and time is just passing me by… I don’t really know what direction I am headed in. Maybe I need to go back to school. Maybe I should learn how to box. Maybe I should start running. Maybe I should learn how to decorate cakes. Maybe I should learn how to crochet. Maybe I should hang my clothes up. Maybe I should buy a superman robe. Yes that is right a super man robe. It is freaking awesome. Maybe I should spend hours online googling one thing after another. As you can tell by the wealth of useless knowledge I keep telling you I have chosen the last one to learn about all the things I maybe should be doing. Like did you know you can buy a boxing ring online? Just add it to your cart. That seems a little too easy. Like does it come in a kit? Do you have to put it together yourself? Do they come and assemble it? How much is shipping on something that size? Where would you put a boxing ring? REALLY!!! When would I need one? I haven’t even learned how to tape my hands yet… that is getting a little ahead of myself. But then I go well in my real life I will need a boxing ring in my gym… Reminds me of this house I created in my mind in high school. It was huge. Every bedroom had their own bathroom. And I put an apartment complex on the far end of the property for my family to live in. Don’t want them too close. Oh and I had so much stuff…. Which brings me to my stuff? I think I might sell my stuff off… Since it seems unlikely that I am going to find a new job anytime soon. And I may as well get rid of it all and lighten my load. One less bill a month… Plus the less I have the less I have tying me down keeping me in one place. It is very strange that I crave stability yet it scares the crap out of me. Having a house sounds wonderful but living in one city for an extended period of time is not ideal. A job with regular hours sounds wonderful. But can I really be happy doing a job like that… Where would I be happy? What will make me happy? Cant my “real” life just get started???????

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I hope you have enjoyed a few minutes inside my head…..

So Lebowski fest was fun! I realize I should have told you about it sooner… Maribeth and I had a blast. We saw the movie bowled some. And enjoyed a wonderful hotel suite! Due to my time with Hillary I became a gold points member of the hotel chain with the holiday inn. Well it also includes the crown plaza. The crown plaza happens to be the hotel that we had reservations at… So during check in we pulled out the gold points club member card and got an upgrade! We ended up with a two room suite. It was highly enjoyable. Maribeth says that everyone should take me on vacation. I can’t make any promises that it will turn out so great every time. But free trips are always welcome!

So the reason why I haven’t been keeping up with the blog are as the title says the result of my napping… Sunday nights I can’t fall asleep. So Mondays I am really tired. Resulting in the need to pass out as soon as I get home. This results in a whole week of napping when I get home from work because I can’t sleep at night. It is a vicious cycle. It has thrown my whole week off. And I repeated the process today. I was up till 3am last night… I tried so hard to sleep. But alas I could not. It isn’t exciting when I have to get up at 6am. So I was tired all day at work. And when I got home I laid down. And turned on my laptop. Did a couple things for like um 5 mins. And then fell asleep for 3+ hours. Now I have to get tired again so I can sleep and wake up early…

I purchased a food processor. OMG I love it! I made fruit salsa. It was a big hit to everyone I made eat it. Highly enjoyable. Now I can’t wait for my tomatoes to ripen so I can make some real salsa. I have some peppers that are ready. If you have a favorite thing to make in the food processor let me know! I am looking for new things to make!

Ok off to get tired and fall asleep!

I started watching the John Adams mini series from HBO. It is amazing. I feel like I am learning so much about the American Revolution. It is very informative. And it has made me love Abigail Adams. She is an amazing woman who was ahead of her time. I have finished the first 3. I am going to try to watch 4-7 this week. I have enjoyed it thus far. And it makes me think I need to learn more about Jefferson. I have visited his home in VA. But I didn’t realize that he was so shy at the beginning. Maybe he gets talkier as it goes on…

This weekend I am going to Lebowski fest. That is right. It should be fun. I have to watch the movie again so I can keep up with the craziness. I am not a die hard fan. My friend bought tickets and the person she was supposed to go with isn’t going. So there is a ticket left. And I am a good friend. I know she is excited about going. I hope it is a good time. It will be interesting none the less. So stay tuned for next weeks recap of the weekend’s adventures.

Ok. I didn’t talk about Palin sooner…. Frankly she has shot herself in the foot.

1. She has proved she is insane.

2. She has proved she can not give a speech to save her life.

3. She made it clear she will give up when the going gets tough.

4. She is stupid if she thinks quitting helps her win the republican primary.

5. The only way she becomes the republican nominee is if Obama’s approval rating is so high they don’t want to waste a viable candidate on the 2012 race.

6. She makes women everywhere look bad.

7. I am pretty sure my college GPA is higher than hers.

8. I like my politicians to problem solve not quit.

9. The only think people make fun of her kids for is her inability to give them real names. Something she passed on to her daughter.

I worked for Hillary for over a year. I have worked for other female candidates in the past. I am pro Woman. And prefer working for them. I also like working for men who know better than to think they can make decisions about women’s bodies. Palin however is not a candidate that is even serious let alone someone I would support. She isn’t running for reelection because she can’t win. I am betting that there is a scandal that she is avoiding by quitting. And it is very possible that someone found something on her and she is trying to sweep it under the rug. I just feel sorry for anyone who buys her book. Because if she writes as well as she speaks you will need someone to translate it for you.

Ok enough complaining about Palin. I went to a reds game yesterday. The new stadium is huge. I had horrible seats. I have decided I would rather go to a dragon’s game. All the seats there are good. And it is fun. I spent the weekend being very American. I hope everyone had a great weekend as well!

So today is the 4th of July.  Well it is almost over.  I have had a fairly good weekend thus far. Yesterday I went to a Dayton Dragon’s game. It was fun. They didn’t win but it was a good time. My dad, his girlfriend, my brother and my niece all went. It was a good family time event. Then we sat and watched Dayton’s fireworks. It was a good night. The fireworks were good. Lasted about 20 minutes. The picture is from last year when I was in DC being American. Today I went to my friend’s house for a bbq. It was a good time. I had a burger and enjoyed some good conversation. Tomorrow I am either going to go to a reds game or lay in bed and watch some movies. Possibly the John Adam’s series so I can fully engulf myself into Americanism. It should be a blast. I love America! I hope everyone else has had a wonderful 4^th!

This week has been fairly good. I have been busy working. Had to work 10 hour days all week to make up for having Friday off. I haven’t heard back from the interview I had last week. I am pretty sure I didn’t move on to round 2. It is so frustrating sitting around waiting and not knowing. And when they refuse to return your calls. That is a fairly good sign. It is rude. Not a good impression of the interviewer. Even just an email saying you were not chosen to move on would be fine. Hopefully they will at least mail letters. It is the right thing to do.

I am going back to enjoying my 3 day weekend! They puppy wants to go out. Have a good night!

DC fireworks 08