inside Stella’s head

I can’t believe that summer is over. It seems like time just keeps moving… At least it wasn’t too hot too much of the summer. I am excited for fall. I get to bring out the sweaters again. Fall makes me miss school. You would think after graduating 6 years ago I would be over it. But I get so excited for back to school sales. I had to stay out of the stores this year. I don’t need anything. I have pens and paper. I barely use them. I type everything. Which reminds me. I finally have my blackberry back. It broke 4 weeks ago today. I got it back on Thursday. I went through serious with draw. I couldn’t wait to get it back. You never realize how addicted you are until it is suddenly taken away.

Yesterday I went to see Extract and Inglorious Bastards. Both were good. I recommend them. However they were two very different movies. Extract is a movie with a lot of character development. It is funny in places. I really liked it. Then we went to see Inglorious Bastards. It was crazy! You have to go see it. I can’t tell you any more than that. I got yelled at for saying something to someone. My friend thought it would give away the suspense of the movie. So I am not saying anything about it. It was awesome and you should see it.

I watched I love you man this weekend. I liked it. It was hilarious. I also watched First Blood. Which is the first Rambo movie. I haven’t seen the other Rambo movies yet. But that was a great first start.

Lately at work I have been listening to Benjamin Franklin and John Adams. Those two biographies were amazing. I am going to be listening to 1776 next week. I can not believe how much they accomplished. Oh yes I almost forgot I watched 1776 the musical last night. Very good. Now that I have finished listening to John Adams the book I am going to start watching the mini series again. I only watched the first two before. The book was so detailed. You should watch it. Or listen to it if you get the chance. I enjoyed it. It is so interesting to see how our country began. I wish we had a John Adams in the congress right now.

He was like a broken record. Just pushing pushing pushing. We need independence. Right now we need health care. The debate is going crazy. It will be interesting to see what Obama does on Wednesday. But a public option is needed. I need it. I have no health care. I can’t get sick. That is like telling me I can’t go to the bathroom. I am bound to get sick. In fact I have had a bit of a sore throat for over a week. It is pretty much gone now. Comes back just a little bit in the morning. What is strange about it is there was no nasal drainage, no coughing, no sneezing, and no nothing really. Well at the beginning there was a fever… that didn’t make any sense at all. But the fever went away. And the sore throat has now too for the most part. Anyway back to health care. I am not the only person I know with out health care. I know a lot of people with no health care. And I know people whose health care doesn’t work for them. I mean seriously. If I got really sick right now. Or had to buy pills… I wouldn’t be able to do it. I have managed to buy over the counter allergy and stomach pills right now… I should probably go to a dr and get checked and make sure the over the counter stuff is controlling everything as it should be… but no health care means no dr. I am just like millions of other people. If I do get really sick I will go to the er… and then I won’t pay the bill. Why? Because I work a temp job and make 10 bucks an hour. Yes that is where my college educated self is working. The economy is failing me. The health care system is failing me. And if I liked the cold I hear Canada is nice. But I like Adams Love America. And I have no desire to leave. I just need America to prosper. So I can prosper. I need to achieve my American Dream.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bGwKed7eTkM

Watch the video. It will help you understand what I think we should do next with the health care reform. We need to make it have everything. We won’t be able to get back to it anytime soon. We haven’t been able to address it since Clinton’s first term. If we don’t do it now…. It could be 16 more years… or 40 years…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jng4TnKqy6A

These two videos kind of sum it up. I am tired of insurance companies deciding who lives and who dies. You are worried about death panels…. You should be worried about getting cancer and having your insurance company denying you the treatment that could save your life.

Ok enough of my soap box. I am going to go enjoy the rest of the Labor Day weekend. I hope you do as well. I am going to attempt to update this more often. So check back soon.

So I have been too busy to type… Hahaha not really. I have just been coming up with other things to do. Not really having great things to say. I have been trying to keep cool. The heat is getting ridiculous.

I saw Julie and Julia! I loved it! I also saw the new Harry Potter. It was good. I want to see the GI Joe movie! It is on my list.

I have been watching big brother… it is insane.

I am currently cooking granola. It just got out of the oven and is cooling. I am kind of excited about it.

We have a lot of tomatoes from the garden. That is fun. I made some salsa. It was alright. I need to work on a better recipe.

Women’s Boxing is now going to be an Olympic sport!!!! Pretty exciting! I am pumped.

I feel like my blog needs a purpose. A topic or something. Otherwise everyone is just going to realize how boring my life is. So make a suggestion. b

video of song.

Colin Hay: Waiting For My Real Life to Begin

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll stand on the bow
And feel the waves come crashing
Come crashing down, down, down on me

And you said,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

When I awoke today suddenly nothing happened
But in my dreams I slew the dragon
And down this beaten path
And up this cobbled lane
I’m walking in my own footsteps once again

And you say,”Just be here now
Forget about the past
Your mask is wearing thin”
Let me throw one more dice
I know that I can win
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

Any minute now my ship is coming in
I’ll keep checking the horizon
And I’ll check my machine
There’s sure to be that call
It’s gonna happen soon, soon, oh so very soon
It’s just that times are lean

And you say,”Be still, my love
Open up your heart
Let the light shine in”
Don’t you understand?
I already have a plan
I’m waiting for my real life to begin

Hey heyeyeyeyey
Hey yeeeeeee
Hey heyeyeyeyey
Eeh eeh eeh eeh eh x5

On a clear day
I can see, see for a long way

On a clear day
I can see, see a very long way

This song is just connecting with my right now. I don’t know how many times I said well in my “real” life this is what I want. Or when I get a “real” job. Just earlier I was talking to Kristina about feeling like I am waiting for my life to begin and time is just passing me by… I don’t really know what direction I am headed in. Maybe I need to go back to school. Maybe I should learn how to box. Maybe I should start running. Maybe I should learn how to decorate cakes. Maybe I should learn how to crochet. Maybe I should hang my clothes up. Maybe I should buy a superman robe. Yes that is right a super man robe. It is freaking awesome. Maybe I should spend hours online googling one thing after another. As you can tell by the wealth of useless knowledge I keep telling you I have chosen the last one to learn about all the things I maybe should be doing. Like did you know you can buy a boxing ring online? Just add it to your cart. That seems a little too easy. Like does it come in a kit? Do you have to put it together yourself? Do they come and assemble it? How much is shipping on something that size? Where would you put a boxing ring? REALLY!!! When would I need one? I haven’t even learned how to tape my hands yet… that is getting a little ahead of myself. But then I go well in my real life I will need a boxing ring in my gym… Reminds me of this house I created in my mind in high school. It was huge. Every bedroom had their own bathroom. And I put an apartment complex on the far end of the property for my family to live in. Don’t want them too close. Oh and I had so much stuff…. Which brings me to my stuff? I think I might sell my stuff off… Since it seems unlikely that I am going to find a new job anytime soon. And I may as well get rid of it all and lighten my load. One less bill a month… Plus the less I have the less I have tying me down keeping me in one place. It is very strange that I crave stability yet it scares the crap out of me. Having a house sounds wonderful but living in one city for an extended period of time is not ideal. A job with regular hours sounds wonderful. But can I really be happy doing a job like that… Where would I be happy? What will make me happy? Cant my “real” life just get started???????

http://www.everlast.com/boxing-rings-accessories.html

I hope you have enjoyed a few minutes inside my head…..

So Lebowski fest was fun! I realize I should have told you about it sooner… Maribeth and I had a blast. We saw the movie bowled some. And enjoyed a wonderful hotel suite! Due to my time with Hillary I became a gold points member of the hotel chain with the holiday inn. Well it also includes the crown plaza. The crown plaza happens to be the hotel that we had reservations at… So during check in we pulled out the gold points club member card and got an upgrade! We ended up with a two room suite. It was highly enjoyable. Maribeth says that everyone should take me on vacation. I can’t make any promises that it will turn out so great every time. But free trips are always welcome!

So the reason why I haven’t been keeping up with the blog are as the title says the result of my napping… Sunday nights I can’t fall asleep. So Mondays I am really tired. Resulting in the need to pass out as soon as I get home. This results in a whole week of napping when I get home from work because I can’t sleep at night. It is a vicious cycle. It has thrown my whole week off. And I repeated the process today. I was up till 3am last night… I tried so hard to sleep. But alas I could not. It isn’t exciting when I have to get up at 6am. So I was tired all day at work. And when I got home I laid down. And turned on my laptop. Did a couple things for like um 5 mins. And then fell asleep for 3+ hours. Now I have to get tired again so I can sleep and wake up early…

I purchased a food processor. OMG I love it! I made fruit salsa. It was a big hit to everyone I made eat it. Highly enjoyable. Now I can’t wait for my tomatoes to ripen so I can make some real salsa. I have some peppers that are ready. If you have a favorite thing to make in the food processor let me know! I am looking for new things to make!

Ok off to get tired and fall asleep!

I started watching the John Adams mini series from HBO. It is amazing. I feel like I am learning so much about the American Revolution. It is very informative. And it has made me love Abigail Adams. She is an amazing woman who was ahead of her time. I have finished the first 3. I am going to try to watch 4-7 this week. I have enjoyed it thus far. And it makes me think I need to learn more about Jefferson. I have visited his home in VA. But I didn’t realize that he was so shy at the beginning. Maybe he gets talkier as it goes on…

This weekend I am going to Lebowski fest. That is right. It should be fun. I have to watch the movie again so I can keep up with the craziness. I am not a die hard fan. My friend bought tickets and the person she was supposed to go with isn’t going. So there is a ticket left. And I am a good friend. I know she is excited about going. I hope it is a good time. It will be interesting none the less. So stay tuned for next weeks recap of the weekend’s adventures.

Ok. I didn’t talk about Palin sooner…. Frankly she has shot herself in the foot.

1. She has proved she is insane.

2. She has proved she can not give a speech to save her life.

3. She made it clear she will give up when the going gets tough.

4. She is stupid if she thinks quitting helps her win the republican primary.

5. The only way she becomes the republican nominee is if Obama’s approval rating is so high they don’t want to waste a viable candidate on the 2012 race.

6. She makes women everywhere look bad.

7. I am pretty sure my college GPA is higher than hers.

8. I like my politicians to problem solve not quit.

9. The only think people make fun of her kids for is her inability to give them real names. Something she passed on to her daughter.

I worked for Hillary for over a year. I have worked for other female candidates in the past. I am pro Woman. And prefer working for them. I also like working for men who know better than to think they can make decisions about women’s bodies. Palin however is not a candidate that is even serious let alone someone I would support. She isn’t running for reelection because she can’t win. I am betting that there is a scandal that she is avoiding by quitting. And it is very possible that someone found something on her and she is trying to sweep it under the rug. I just feel sorry for anyone who buys her book. Because if she writes as well as she speaks you will need someone to translate it for you.

Ok enough complaining about Palin. I went to a reds game yesterday. The new stadium is huge. I had horrible seats. I have decided I would rather go to a dragon’s game. All the seats there are good. And it is fun. I spent the weekend being very American. I hope everyone had a great weekend as well!

So today is the 4th of July.  Well it is almost over.  I have had a fairly good weekend thus far. Yesterday I went to a Dayton Dragon’s game. It was fun. They didn’t win but it was a good time. My dad, his girlfriend, my brother and my niece all went. It was a good family time event. Then we sat and watched Dayton’s fireworks. It was a good night. The fireworks were good. Lasted about 20 minutes. The picture is from last year when I was in DC being American. Today I went to my friend’s house for a bbq. It was a good time. I had a burger and enjoyed some good conversation. Tomorrow I am either going to go to a reds game or lay in bed and watch some movies. Possibly the John Adam’s series so I can fully engulf myself into Americanism. It should be a blast. I love America! I hope everyone else has had a wonderful 4^th!

This week has been fairly good. I have been busy working. Had to work 10 hour days all week to make up for having Friday off. I haven’t heard back from the interview I had last week. I am pretty sure I didn’t move on to round 2. It is so frustrating sitting around waiting and not knowing. And when they refuse to return your calls. That is a fairly good sign. It is rude. Not a good impression of the interviewer. Even just an email saying you were not chosen to move on would be fine. Hopefully they will at least mail letters. It is the right thing to do.

I am going back to enjoying my 3 day weekend! They puppy wants to go out. Have a good night!

DC fireworks 08

I had an interview on Monday. I haven’t heard yet if I have made it on to round two… I hate waiting… It is still possible that I am moving on to the next round. I will do better at updating if I do. I realize I should have updated sooner about having the interview. I guess I didn’t want to say anything in case nothing comes of it… Job hunting is not fun. I have talked before about the difficulties of figuring out one’s future. I would love to just know where I am supposed to be and what I need to do to get there…. The job that I interviewed for is in DC. This made me think about moving and what that would involve.

Ikea… Oh how I love thee. I do not own anything from Ikea… However my ideal life will involve Ikea furniture. I have spent some time looking at various items on the website. I think in the end it depends on when I start my ideal life and the situations around that life. Do I have a house, an apartment, a roommate, a partner, a girlfriend? Many questions that will have to be answered before hand. Currently I have none of those things. And no plans to have my own space anytime soon… A better job is needed first. I really want to design a house with Ikea closets… If you have never gone and looked at the closets go to the Ikea store nearest you. It is amazing. And they do so many room set ups. You can just walk around the store and dream about what your life would be like in each of these places. It is fun. The library rooms are great. I really want one of those. I need to take a trip to the Ikea store soon… That will be fun.

I live in Ohio. It has been extremely humid this week. Like insane humidity levels. I think it was like 80% this week. That has not been fun. I have been super hot. Actually Thursday I was so hot sitting in the living room watching tv that I decided to go outside and spray myself with the water hose. I did. And it was glorious. I just kind of sprayed the water up in the air and it was like being in a summer rain shower. If it would have been a real rain shower the weather would have gotten better. Thankfully that happened later that night.

I went and saw the hangover this morning. It was hilarious. I laughed so hard. Seriously hilarious. You should go see it.

Ok I am going to bed. Have a great rest of the weekend.

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Above is a clip of Food, Inc.  and below that is a link to find a theater near you.  You need to watch this movie.  Our food is killing us.  Ok I know that sounds crazy and I may sound like a crazy organic hippie.  But seriously… The food we eat is making us sick.  I know it is easy to turn a blind eye and just go to McDonalds.  Do you even know how much corn you consume a day?  I am sure you have no idea.  I didn’t.  I thought well I didn’t eat any corn so none.  When in fact everything I was drinking and eating was made of corn.  I have many articles on this topic.  And have become someone obsessed with it.  I mean yes I still consume some food that isn’t ideal.  But I have switched to water.  Thus the Nalgene fun.  In the end the main goal is to switch over to food that comes from the ground or has a mother.  Part of the problem with just doing that is that most of the meat is corn fed.  The cycle is insane.  The movie comes to Cincinnati on July 10th.  That is the closest that it gets to Miamisburg. 

Ok watch the clip — don’t let me scare you.  And then discuss it.  I need someone to come and watch it with me!  

So it has been a year since I worked for Hillary…  I kind of just let the date pass by with out even paying attention.  Some staffers in DC had a 1 year later party.  But here in Ohio it would be a sad party of myself…  It is so strange that it has been a year.  I still think about the trips like they just happened.  19 different states in 14.5 months…  I miss it.  I think that “job” is having a lasting effect on me.  I can’t get it out of my head.  I can’t figure out what to do now that would be as meaningful in my life as working for Hillary Clinton.  

Kristina is back in Hawaii.  You can follow her blog at http://kgaible.wordpress.com  she has fun stories from grad school and Hawaii.  She doesn’t have stories of Volcanoes though.  There are no live ones on her island.    But the blog is fun despite the lack of hot lava!  ;) Just picking on you Kris!  

The books I am currently listening to are by Janet Evanocich.  They are the Stephanie Plum series.  If you too want to read them they are the number books.  1 for the money. 2 for the dough.  3 to get ready. 4 to score… to fearless 14.  They are fun and are making my job slightly more enjoyable.  

I need to get a hair cut.  Maybe I will do that tomorrow.  We will see.  Alright I am going to go to bed.  I know I am lame on a Friday night.  It is ok.  

My friend Kristina is heading back to Hawaii in the morning.  I wish I was going too.  I want to see volcanoes though and she doesn’t live on the island.  Or so she keeps telling me.  I keep asking to make sure she isn’t lying.  Hahaha.  She has been unable to produce any volcano merchandise so she might be telling the truth.  She did find one cigar with a volcano picture on it.  I am planning to go out next may for her grad school graduation.  During that time we are going to take a Hawaiian cruise so we can see the volcanoes and the black sand beaches.  We should be able to see all the islands depending on which cruise we take and for how long. 

Now on to the topic of pens.  I work a temp job.  It is for a large company.  They spend a great deal of money on crappy pens.  There are loads of them.  I keep running them out of ink.  It is troubling.  I actually brought a pencil back to my desk so the next time one quits I can just give up on them too.  If it was just me and there was no chance of the pens being stolen by another cube groundhog then I might take nice ones in.  But frankly I don’t want to buy pens and then use them at work.  I have a small obsession with office supplies.  It is kind of bad so I don’t talk about it.  I do prefer pens that would get ink on my hands to ones that you have to force ink out of.  Those are just not worth the time or effort. 

I had a fairly uneventful weekend and so far the week hasn’t been too exciting. 

Today is Election Day in Virginia.  There are a couple of primary fights there that I am watching.  I may discuss them after I can review the data. 

Until next time!  Go vote VA!